We did the mash... We did the Monster Mash
Halloween this year was so much fun! After weeks, and I do mean weeks of trying to figure out what to be, and many failed attempts to the costume store.. or should I say lingerie store... Katelyn and I of course waited until the very last hours before the party to decide what to be. ....... Ladies and Gents.... Thing One.. and Thing Two! We went to the "Howl" at staheli farms for the college thing and it was a bunch of fun. Bo and Derrick Shelly went with us and we of course danced the night away. They were good to patiently wait and hear the verdict of or costumes as to choose what they would be.The night ended for myself and Katelyn at 2 in the morning showering out our blue ratted hair... and scrubbing our ridiculously makeuped faces. Blisss.
Oh! Of course we can not forget tiny little Bugzee boy... He too got in the halloween spirit this year...reluctantly.. but none the less he was adorable!
Mmm.. Mmm.. Good.
Ben Mckenzie
Do you love him like I do?
You may recognize him as Ryan..from the O.C
However, Tonight I was introduced to Ben Mckenzie
In a whole new light.
Southland.
As a police officer.
He is beautiful
Southland.
As a police officer.
He is beautiful
No doubt the only reason I will be watching the show
Today I realized something.
An epifany if you whill.
When I am at home, doing my own thing.. essentially being lazy.
Or at school. Or doing homework.
Having lots of time to think.
I don't miss Cam.. as much.
However..
When I am out doing something fun
"Keeping myself busy"
With friends or family
Is when I miss him the most.
Tell me something is not seriously mixed up here..
Simply Addicted.
I told myself I would never be that person. I would never be the person that blogs about what I ate for breakfast. And here I am. Okay, So i'm not blogging about food..yet. But I sure as heck am blogging about everything elseI apologize, but not really. Maybe it is my lack of social life due to: A: Working full time B:Going to school for time C:Raising a tiny pup (Ha!) D: And the nagging need for sleep.
that causees me to spill everything going on in my head to the computer screen. Thought vomit. Word Vomit.. call it what you will.
Anyways,
I am simply addicted.
I am simply addicted.
Love this!
I heard this song on my way home today and I fell in love with it! Maybe it was because I was driving home from taking mom out to lunch, where we were talking alot about me going away to school and the future.. things of that nature. Either way, I thought this song was beautiful and touching. I am so grateful for my mom and everything that she has taught me. She is seriously the biggest example to me and I'm afraid I don't show her enough how much she truly means to me. Love you Mom!!
Post Script... Don't you just LOVE her ring?!! Ahh I love it... in my wildest dreams, that is the ring I will have :]
Post Script... Don't you just LOVE her ring?!! Ahh I love it... in my wildest dreams, that is the ring I will have :]
Things...
Things that made me frown...
-Printer would not work.. and I had a paper due today! Grr...
- Family drama that is very, very uneccissary. I hate lack of communication.
- I forgot to send off Cams package today!
- Halloween stores ONLY sell skanky costumes. Katelyn and I discovered this today.
- A guest tonight kept calling down and complaining about the same thing...over, and over again. I had no control over the situation! As I explained everytime he called.. seriously dude?
- I was reminded I have a dentist app tomorrow.
- I realized how far, far behind in math I truly am.
- I realized today that my battery in my phone has lasted me 4 days due to the lack of use since Cam has been gone. I can't decide wether that is a frown..or smile moment.
Things that made me smile...
- English was short today! Whooop!
- Costume shopping with Katelyn, I never get to hang out with her enough.
- Getting a lot done at work
- Work going by so fast!
- Realization that I do not work tomorrow, ah even better.
- Powering through my Edgar Allan Poe essay.. almost.
- A 35 minute shower. Bliss
- Bugzee... He is just the cutest and I am crazy about him
- David putting Microsoft Word on my computer for Friiiiizaaayyy! Sooo excited.
- Two Letter Tuesday! Two letters from Cam!
- Writing a ridiculously long letter to Cam that made me feel much better about life.
-The Wendys I had for lunch.. it was delish!
- This cold weather! I lovvee wearing sweats to bed again.
-Printer would not work.. and I had a paper due today! Grr...
- Family drama that is very, very uneccissary. I hate lack of communication.
- I forgot to send off Cams package today!
- Halloween stores ONLY sell skanky costumes. Katelyn and I discovered this today.
- A guest tonight kept calling down and complaining about the same thing...over, and over again. I had no control over the situation! As I explained everytime he called.. seriously dude?
- I was reminded I have a dentist app tomorrow.
- I realized how far, far behind in math I truly am.
- I realized today that my battery in my phone has lasted me 4 days due to the lack of use since Cam has been gone. I can't decide wether that is a frown..or smile moment.
Things that made me smile...
- English was short today! Whooop!
- Costume shopping with Katelyn, I never get to hang out with her enough.
- Getting a lot done at work
- Work going by so fast!
- Realization that I do not work tomorrow, ah even better.
- Powering through my Edgar Allan Poe essay.. almost.
- A 35 minute shower. Bliss
- Bugzee... He is just the cutest and I am crazy about him
- David putting Microsoft Word on my computer for Friiiiizaaayyy! Sooo excited.
- Two Letter Tuesday! Two letters from Cam!
- Writing a ridiculously long letter to Cam that made me feel much better about life.
-The Wendys I had for lunch.. it was delish!
- This cold weather! I lovvee wearing sweats to bed again.
Procrastination..I do it well.
Yes. I should be doing my stack of homework right now.
Yes, it is after midnight.
Yes I will be up all night for sure.
Yes, I am blogging instead.
Well now that that is cleared up...
Yes, it is after midnight.
Yes I will be up all night for sure.
Yes, I am blogging instead.
Well now that that is cleared up...
How handsome is this boy?!!?
I came across this picture today while searching through some old pictures files.And I could not even help myself to blog this of course. He is just so cute! I am just so twitterpated ever looking at this picture. This was his first trizip to St. George! Ahh....*Sigh* check out those perfect teeth and crazy blue eyeballs. ..... I think we all agree. He is a stud. And I miss him! Annnnddd... thats it. I'm allowed to be a cheeseball.. back off! ;]
Eu te amo.
Today I over-heard a couple of girls talking in class.
The subject: Love
They were discussing what "love" really is and how do you know if you love someone or not. And of course I started thinking.
It reminded me of something Cam wrote to me in a letter a few weeks ago when I was telling him how spiritually inadequite I feel compared to him, especially now. He replied..
The subject: Love
They were discussing what "love" really is and how do you know if you love someone or not. And of course I started thinking.
It reminded me of something Cam wrote to me in a letter a few weeks ago when I was telling him how spiritually inadequite I feel compared to him, especially now. He replied..
" Kaitlen, being spiritual is not one significant event, it is having faith and doing all of the little things"
Though that really has nothing to do with love, it got me thinking how "love" or "being in love" is not one significant event. You don't wake up one morning after meeting someone and suddenly your in love. It is the little things that build up to it.I think love happens differently for everyone and means something different to everyone. To me love is patience. It's crazy blue eyes and shaggy somewhat curly dishwater blonde hair. It's complete trust and honesty. It is hours of laughing. It's acting like kids at a nickle-cade. It's an Idaho boy and a Utah girl. It's never giving up even when it is hard. It's coldplay. It's a summer list. It's drive in movies. It's walmart runs late at night. It's falling asleep on the phone. It's long aimless drives. It's long distance. It's the Gospel. It's prayer. It's sacrifice. It's selfless. It's FUN. It's fighting over stupid things. It's a farris wheel ride. It's sending me with my favorite treats for the road. It's temple square. It's a farewell. It's forehead kisses and back tickles. It's being best friends. It's my music that he pretends to hate, but secretly loves. It's our families. It's loving the imperfections. It's music. It's understanding. It's a letter a day from Provo. It's Red Robin. It's almost drowning/freezing at the lake. It's burberry cologne. It's EFY. It's Sunday naps. It's tears on a pillow when he is gone. It's loyalty. It's tons of pictures. It's midnight showings. It's babysitting together. It's a history I would never change. It's road trips. It's picnics. It's lazy sundays with family. It's advice. It's tears over leaving. It's fall, winter, spring summer.. and all over again. It's the mountains. It's stupid stories. It's the temple. It's lagoon. It's emails. It's coke and water. It's Greys Anatomy and Flight of the Concords. It's proving everybody wrong. It's lazy days. It's pet names. It's complete understanding. It's sunshine and rain. It's down town Salt Lake. It's a fiddle. It's holding hands. It's the Gateway mall. It's chewy pasta. It's driving a long way to see someone for a short time. It's lazy days spent inside. It's text messages. It's surprises. It's five hour energies. It's sour gummy worms. It's sappy girl movies and intense boy movies. It's being apart and nothing changes. It's a mass amount of stamps. It's giving up what you want for what you know is right. It's listening to music you hate because you know the other person loves it. It's good dreams. It's a phone call at 3am because I had a bad dream.Its crazy ex's. It's seminary makeup. It's skype. It's hanging up, and getting a call right back. It's circus animals. It's bugzee. It's the clark planitarium. It's feeling like part of the family. It's curfews and rushing home to make them. It's playing the same song over, and over, and over just because I like it. It's pats BBQ. It's a vegas new years. It's a cranky hungry boy. It's Jack in the Box chicken sandwhiches. It's hatch family hot chocolate. It's nightmare on 13th street. It's trax. It's Sour patch kids for him, and sour patch watermellons for me. It's support. It's dumb gifts. It's hard. It's puppy throwup....twice. It's the inability to stop talking about it. It's a lot of things. It's taking it one day at a time.
I am fully aware the a lot can happen in two years.
Of course I know there are many fish in the sea... I happen to want this fish.
Of course I know there are many fish in the sea... I happen to want this fish.
No, I am not just going to sit around do nothing and "wait" I am going to live my life for two years and see where that gets me.
A letter a day is not gaggy. It is lucky, in about a month that will not be the case. So excuse me for taking it all in and loving it for the moment.
Forgive me for showing no pitty when you haven't seen your boyfriend for two days and "You just miss him so much!" ....Pa-Leeeeeeese.
It never gets any easier, some days are just better than others.
Yes, somedays I don't feel like going out,
somedays I just feel like staying in. That does not mean I am "antisocial" for crying out loud.
If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all :]
New Blog!
I have started a new Blog for Elder Cameron Ricker! Just a little something for those of you who are interested to keep tabs on him. As well as his contact info, I know he would love to hear from everyone!!
eldercameronricker.blogspot.com
eldercameronricker.blogspot.com
Sundays
I have recently discovered my love for Sundays. I cherish them sooo much now that I occasionally have to work on Sundays and am unable to attend church or be with my family during the day. Today I did not work and it was GREAT! I went to the college ward with friends, hung around the house with my parents, started a blog for Cam and stumbled upon a quote from President Monson that I absolutely love. I am so thankful for this day to relax, learn and reflect.
“Sometimes we let our thoughts of tomorrow take up too much of today. Daydreaming of the past and longing for the future may provide comfort but will not take the place of living in the present. This is the day of our opportunity, and we must grasp it.”
- President Thomas S. Monson
I Love this so much. It is amazing how much it applies to me today, and how I just happend to stumble upon it. I sometimes get so caught up in the past, but mostly the future that I completely forget to enjoy the moment and take it all in.
Ahhh.. I love sundays :]
Ahhh.. I love sundays :]
Girls with Missionaries: What to avoid...
So this time in my life is definately a learning experience. I have never done this before! Trying this and trying that is definately entertaining me, some things are working great at keeping me occupied and busy, some things... well, not so much.
#1: Say yes to the dress....
This perhaps is my biggest one. I have loved this show for many a months now, but lately. It just makes me want to get married (more like just have a beautiful wedding dress from a designer store in NYC!) but still, this will not do. Avoid, avoid, avoid. ... I watched an episode today.. darn.
#2: Dear John:
Nooo, not the letter sillies. The movie. Do I really need to go into this one? It is pretty self explanitory i'd say.
#3: Lots, and Lots of food:
It seems like the chocolate cake.. and the pint of icecream will make all of your sorrows go away. Wrong, it will only add to your problems! Particularly your wasteline.
#4: Feeling Sorry for Yourself:
It just doesn't help. Sure everyone is walking hand in hand with their love, while you are not. Everyone is going out on dates, while your love is probably in a different country. Just focus on the positive!
#5: Sitting around, twiddling your thumbs:
Your missionary is out learning, serving, and growing. He doesn't want letters telling him how for the last week you have shopped every day, got your hair done, and watched the latest shows on TV. Do something with your time! Grow right a long with him, serve and learn right along with him!
#1: Say yes to the dress....
This perhaps is my biggest one. I have loved this show for many a months now, but lately. It just makes me want to get married (more like just have a beautiful wedding dress from a designer store in NYC!) but still, this will not do. Avoid, avoid, avoid. ... I watched an episode today.. darn.
#2: Dear John:
Nooo, not the letter sillies. The movie. Do I really need to go into this one? It is pretty self explanitory i'd say.
#3: Lots, and Lots of food:
It seems like the chocolate cake.. and the pint of icecream will make all of your sorrows go away. Wrong, it will only add to your problems! Particularly your wasteline.
#4: Feeling Sorry for Yourself:
It just doesn't help. Sure everyone is walking hand in hand with their love, while you are not. Everyone is going out on dates, while your love is probably in a different country. Just focus on the positive!
#5: Sitting around, twiddling your thumbs:
Your missionary is out learning, serving, and growing. He doesn't want letters telling him how for the last week you have shopped every day, got your hair done, and watched the latest shows on TV. Do something with your time! Grow right a long with him, serve and learn right along with him!
Being Domestic..
I don't know what it is, but something strange is occuring. Many who know me, know I do not like to do crafts too much, or cook.. or do anything of the sort for that matter. I have become a crafy machine! I am shocked, I don't know where this girl came from.. But I must say, I am very happy with the results thus far.
My new jewelry hanger board! Got the idea from this cute little one in Tays bathroom, and low and behold at the store I dread most.. (hobby lobby) I found this cute framed cork board! Picked out some cute material to cover it with, and now it hangs all my jewelery, and more importantly takes up some wall space. I love it!
The most beautiful cookies I have ever made in my life. And yummy too! Sent them to Cam :]
After discovering my new found cooking abilities.. I decided to copy down some of my favorite recipes from moms cook books and then made this cute box to hold them all!
Okay, so it is a week late.. But the concert was so much fun and just what I needed a week after sending Cam off. And man oh man is Jason Derulo quite the ladies man... Here are some pics that I stole from Tay from the concert!
Seesters prepared to enjoy a great night! (Missed our prego seester colie!)
B.O.B up on stage. We had really good seats! All of us thought he was so cute, in a nerdy kind of way :]
All the girls! Such a fun night. Thanks Kenz for organizing it!
Love. Love. Love. Letters.
I Love getting letters from Cam
I can be in the worst mood, frustrated and discouraged
and somehow without knowing
he always says something I need to hear.
He is simply the best
:]
:]
"I'm glad you had fun at your concert!
Sounds like you had a blast... Although..
Sounds like you had a blast... Although..
I am a little concerned about this Derulo Character.."
"So I was thinking..
since you are a slave to your To-Do lists,
you should make one of everything you want to do while I'm gone
and at the end,
in huge capital letters put..
"DONT GET MARRIED"
perfect idea huh!"
"I am glad bugzee and Brunswick are doing their jobs!!!
I miss our tiny family"
I miss our tiny family"
-Elder Cameron Ricker.
“ You may not be his first, his last, or his only. He loved before he may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He's not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if he can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break - his heart. So don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there." -Bob Marley |
And I thought I was doing so good.
Ugh. No wonder everyone keeps telling me to "just keep busy".
This week has gone by so fast! I can do this easy, is what I keep thinking.
And now on my one day to do nothing but relax and enjoy the day, It all hits me again.
Bummer.
This week has gone by so fast! I can do this easy, is what I keep thinking.
And now on my one day to do nothing but relax and enjoy the day, It all hits me again.
Bummer.
Mmmhhmm..
It is Monday.
Tomorrow....Jason Derulo Concert. Soo excited.
Don't work until Friday.
Fall break this weekend! No School!
Today is Christopher Columbus day.....no mail. Boooo..
All caught up on math! Relief!
4.. yes 4 midterms out of the way.
Making cookies for Cam tonight!
Cam should have gotten my Dear Elder today. Good!
Nap with Bugzee in a minute.
This is going to be a good week.
Tomorrow....Jason Derulo Concert. Soo excited.
Don't work until Friday.
Fall break this weekend! No School!
Today is Christopher Columbus day.....no mail. Boooo..
All caught up on math! Relief!
4.. yes 4 midterms out of the way.
Making cookies for Cam tonight!
Cam should have gotten my Dear Elder today. Good!
Nap with Bugzee in a minute.
This is going to be a good week.
The Letter #1
Today I got my first letter! Already! I was soooo excited. It was so good to hear from him already and hear a little bit about how he is doing. And yes, to hear that he is missing me too, just as much as I am missing him was of course very nice :] He is doing great and loves it so far, though the days are long. I think I have read the letter 12 times since recieving it. And I can guarentee I will read it more before I go to bed. It is so nice. I can still hear him in my head when I read it as though he is actually saying it to me. Does that make sense? Ahhh what a good day!
" So there is this rule here.. for every picture you have
up of your girlfriend.. you have to have two up of Jesus....
Looks like I am going to buy some more pictures of Jesus...."
- Elder Cameron Ricker.
- Elder Cameron Ricker.
October 6th, 2010
There are a million things I could say about today, and a million little details I could entail that would not mean anything to anyone but me. So let me just sum it up.
- Elder Ricker has now been in the provo MTC for 4 1/2 hours. Is it time to come home yet?
- I said goodbye to him today at 7:30 in the morning in freezing provo weather after making a quick trip up to suprise him.
- Long drive home, cried pretty much the whole way. I am definately a baby.
- Cam home, went straight in to Bugzee. Of course, started crying. Of course he was there to lick up my tears and runny nose :]
- Next went straight into Dad. "Are you okay?" ... No. Dad hugged me while I cried and cried.
- I have already checked my e-mail three times.... I don't want to talk about it.
- Went to class, that took my mind off of things for awhile, as long as nobody talks about it, I am okay.
- Noticed little suprises Cam left for me in random parts of my luggage and school books. I sure do love that boy.
- Came home from school, Dad asked how I was again. "A little better"I say almost in tears again. "I bet he is feeling the same way" He says. I sure hope not.
- So humbled by all of the friends and family I have had checking up on me today to make sure I am doing okay. I am so blessed.
- Realizing how much he is going to learn and grow. So excited for him! - Vist mom at work. She starts talking about it. I start crying.. again.
- Going to do some homework. Then relief society craft thing with Mom. Dad still needs to give me my back to school blessing. I think tonight will be a good night.
- I know it is going to hit me again tonight.
Things will get easier :]
- Elder Ricker has now been in the provo MTC for 4 1/2 hours. Is it time to come home yet?
- I said goodbye to him today at 7:30 in the morning in freezing provo weather after making a quick trip up to suprise him.
- Long drive home, cried pretty much the whole way. I am definately a baby.
- Cam home, went straight in to Bugzee. Of course, started crying. Of course he was there to lick up my tears and runny nose :]
- Next went straight into Dad. "Are you okay?" ... No. Dad hugged me while I cried and cried.
- I have already checked my e-mail three times.... I don't want to talk about it.
- Went to class, that took my mind off of things for awhile, as long as nobody talks about it, I am okay.
- Noticed little suprises Cam left for me in random parts of my luggage and school books. I sure do love that boy.
- Came home from school, Dad asked how I was again. "A little better"I say almost in tears again. "I bet he is feeling the same way" He says. I sure hope not.
- So humbled by all of the friends and family I have had checking up on me today to make sure I am doing okay. I am so blessed.
- Realizing how much he is going to learn and grow. So excited for him! - Vist mom at work. She starts talking about it. I start crying.. again.
- Going to do some homework. Then relief society craft thing with Mom. Dad still needs to give me my back to school blessing. I think tonight will be a good night.
- I know it is going to hit me again tonight.
"Ever have one of those days where you hate the world,
and anything that happens, even dropping your pen,
makes you wanna break down and cry?"
ha ha. I thought this was a pretty fitting
description for how I am feeling today.
Things will get easier :]
Wow, Remember when I posted and it was like...130 something days away. Well now it is four, FOUR. And I will be honest, I thought this was going to be muuuuch easier.
I think I have bipolar disorder, because some days I am ultra excited and ready for him to leave. And some days there is nothing I wouldn't give for there to be many, many more days before he leaves. Today is one of those days.
Last night I came home from work and plopped on mom and dads bed. "How was work?"
"I don't want him to leave." ... dad proceeded to rub my back and tell me he would be home before I knew it. I proceeded to leave the room shortly after to avoid the inevitable tears that were threating to take a stroll down my face.
Despite my selfish wants. And the rainy cloud that has been hanging over my head all week.
I am so proud of this boy.
I think I have bipolar disorder, because some days I am ultra excited and ready for him to leave. And some days there is nothing I wouldn't give for there to be many, many more days before he leaves. Today is one of those days.
Last night I came home from work and plopped on mom and dads bed. "How was work?"
"I don't want him to leave." ... dad proceeded to rub my back and tell me he would be home before I knew it. I proceeded to leave the room shortly after to avoid the inevitable tears that were threating to take a stroll down my face.
Despite my selfish wants. And the rainy cloud that has been hanging over my head all week.
I am so proud of this boy.
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